I feel like too often I am looking ahead to the next thing instead of enjoying what is here and now. Several times a day I find myself thinking that I can't wait for Olivia to walk without falling, or be able to play on playgrounds, or tell me what she wants. This morning I regretted ever wishing to hurry things. I was playing with Livi's hair and was able to pull it back into a tiny ponytail. It was sad. My baby looked like a little girl with her hair pulled up (also it didn't help that she is basically the size of a two-year-old), and I wanted time to stop.
Also, we are going on a month now with Olivia sleeping through the entire night!! I had previously let one night feeding linger, and would usually feed her before I went to bed around midnight. However, our pediatrician told us that she should be able to sleep through the night by 1 year and I knew that at some point we may want to leave her with someone overnight.
The first night of operation Sleep Through the Night she woke up around 1:30am wanting to eat. I let her cry for about 5 minutes then went up and held her for a minute (all of the books say not to pick your baby up out of her crib when comforting, but Olivia just gets worked up more when I try to comfort her without picking her up, so this works for us). It was difficult for her to understand why I wasn't feeding her and she kept trying to nurse while I held her. When I put her back in her crib without feeding, she screamed and screamed. I went downstairs and let her cry for another ten minutes, then went up and fed her.
The second night I did the same routine, but let her cry for ten minutes before picking her up to comfort her. I then put her back in bed without feeding and went downstairs, let her cry for fifteen minutes and then went up and fed her. On night three when I went up to comfort her she didn't try to eat, she just let me hold her and she stopped crying. I put her back in her crib and gave her twenty minutes this time before I went back up to feed her and by the time the twenty minutes had lapsed, she had fallen back asleep. No nursing :) For the next few nights she either woke up to cry and then went right back to sleep, or slept clear through the night.
A week later, she mysteriously started waking up again in the night (I think teething had something to do with it). I simply repeated the process, and by night three she wasn't waking up at all, and hasn't since. 8pm-7:30am she sleeps soundly. It has been a dream.
She has had diarrhea for about two weeks now (sorry for TMI, but this is a baby blog. Get over it ;). She hasn't seemed to feel sick so I thought maybe she had a bit of lactose intolerance since she hasn't been on cow's milk for very long, so I cut out all dairy. No improvement. I finally called her pediatrician this morning and was told that since she has been on cow's milk for 5 weeks and only had diarrhea for two weeks, it probably wasn't the dairy and that most likely she got a random bout of diarrhea and then her body hasn't been able to regain the healthy bacteria in her system. I was told to give her a high-fat, high-protein diet and some probiotic yogurt. Today lunch consisted of grilled cheese sandwich, chicken nuggets, and yogurt. Hopefully it helps and by tomorrow I won't be changing a diaper every two hours and worrying over a sore bum :( I felt bad that I had been depriving her of the things that would ultimately help with the problem (yogurt, and anything fatty), but once again it is all part of the learning experience.